He walked into his brother’s dorm room.
His brother was holding a withdrawal form.
And the letter he’d written six years ago.
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The door wasn’t locked.
Ryan pushed it open. Third floor, west wing. Same building they’d toured together when Marcus was seventeen, back when the plan still felt real.
Marcus was sitting on the floor. Back against the bed frame. Withdrawal form on his left knee. On his right, a folded piece of notebook paper, edges worn soft.
Ryan recognized the handwriting before he saw the date.
September 2018.
Marcus didn’t look up. His thumb was running over the crease in the paper, same motion, over and over.
“You kept that,” Ryan said.
Marcus’s hand stopped. His shoulders locked. He didn’t turn around.
Ryan stepped inside. Boots on linoleum. The sound made Marcus flinch.
“I kept it in my vest pocket,” Ryan said. “Helmand. Kirkuk. All of it.”
Marcus’s jaw tightened. His eyes stayed on the letter.
Ryan crossed the room. Sat down next to him on the floor. Close enough to see the ink had faded in some spots, darkened in others from being unfolded too many times.
The letter was in Marcus’s handwriting. Written the night before Ryan deployed.
*Don’t forget we’re doing this together. You serve. I study. We meet back here when you’re done. Aerospace. Like we said. Don’t come back if I’m not an engineer yet. I mean it.*
Ryan read it upside down. He’d memorized it five years ago.
Marcus’s hand was shaking now. The withdrawal form slipped off his knee. He didn’t pick it up.
“You weren’t supposed to be back until June,” Marcus whispered.
“I wasn’t.”
“Why are you here?”
Ryan didn’t answer right away. He reached into his jacket. Pulled out a second piece of paper. Same notebook. Same year. Different handwriting.
He set it on the floor between them.
Marcus stared at it. His breathing changed.
It was Ryan’s response. Written the same night. Folded the same way. Marcus had never seen it.
*If you quit, I’m coming home early. That’s the deal. You don’t get to give up just because it’s hard. I didn’t.*
Marcus picked it up with both hands. His fingers left creases in the corners.
“You wrote this six years ago?”
“Same night you wrote yours.”
“You never sent it.”
“Didn’t need to. You didn’t quit.”
Marcus’s face crumpled. He pressed the heels of his palms into his eyes. His shoulders started shaking.
Ryan didn’t move. Didn’t touch him. Just sat there.
After a long time, Marcus lowered his hands. His eyes were red. He looked at the withdrawal form on the floor. Then at Ryan.
“I failed Thermodynamics twice.”
“I know.”
“I can’t afford another semester.”
“I know.”
“Then why are you here?”
Ryan leaned his head back against the bed frame. Stared at the ceiling.
“Because six years ago, you made me promise not to come home unless you were still trying.” He looked at his brother. “And last week, Mom said you stopped going to class.”
Marcus’s throat worked. He couldn’t speak.
Ryan picked up the withdrawal form. Folded it once. Twice. Set it on the desk across the room.
“Thermo’s offered again in the fall,” Ryan said. “And I’ve got four months of leave.”
Marcus stared at him.
“You’re staying?”
“We’re doing this together. That was the deal.”
Marcus’s face broke. He turned away, but his hand reached out. Ryan caught it. Held on.
Neither of them said anything.
Outside, someone laughed in the hallway. A door slammed. Life kept moving.
Marcus looked down at the two letters on the floor. His. Ryan’s. Six years apart. Same promise.
He nodded once. Barely.
Ryan nodded back.
The withdrawal form stayed on the desk.
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